Hi... Good evening. It's been a while I haven't posted my writing here. Been so busy and kinda lazy to write xD. I read my old posts just now and I was like 'Oh no..My writings were so bad' but I was brought to the past at the same time reading them :D Okay, so, tonight, I will write my reflection about my experience as a teacher since 2012. 

I graduated from my college on September 2011. In the same year, I became a Liaison Officer (LO) in SEA Games at Palembang in November 2011. January 2014 was my first time becoming a teacher in my hometown, Sungai Lilin (well, it's not a village but not yet a city). I was accepted as a teacher at SMP Negeri 1 Sungai Lilin (the school where I studied when I was 12-14) and Madrasah Aliyah Ar-Risalah.

I'm gonna tell you why I ended up becoming a teacher. Well, indeed, my background education directed me to be a teacher (English education study program). As a young girl, however, my ego was still high. I didn't want to be a teacher as I thought being a teacher was not a cool and prestigious job. I wanted something more sophisticated like working as a banker or employer in a famous company. I, then, applied for a job as a CSO (customer service officer) in SUMSEL Bank. I was nearly accepted to work at this bank after going through three steps of tests. But, in the end, I didn't work at this bank as I did not come to the last test, the 4th test which was medical check-up. I did not come because I knew my parents would not give me permission to work at banks. They wanted me to be a teacher. I let it go and became a teacher.

Until now, it's been almost three years I have been a teacher. I now realize that teaching has become my passion. Though people think becoming a teacher is not tempting and a high-class job, I love being a teacher. It's a very distinguished and honorable profession. Well, here are my experiences. At first, I was annoyed by students' doings. As time passed, however, I realized they were lovable. They loved me, too.

They could be my mood booster. Whenever I felt down and sad due to some problems, these damn feelings would fade away as I interacted and chatted with them in the class. Looking at their shining bright eyes when I was teaching them, I felt miracle. Their eyes and smiles strengthened and aroused my positive energy. Moreover, I felt a high level of satisfaction when they nodded their head showing they had understood what I was teaching to them. What made me even love this profession more was that I got a new family. They would smile and greet me either when I walked around them in the school or when we met accidentally somewhere. It's not that I was glad because I was honored. I was simply pleased when people noticed my existence in this world :) Well, I was even happier when they contacted me through Facebook or text me asking why I was absent from the class, not teaching them; even happier when they text me and said they missed me; even happier when they trusted me to share their problems; and  even happier when they came to my home to see me me when I was sick. 

Alright, now I'll share about my experience with my students. You know that I teach in Sungai Lilin. Students in this place was quite different from the city. It's so difficult to teach students here. I'm not saying they are all stupid. Just....Most of them are not motivated to study. They come to school just because they are forced to, not because they want to. Perhaps, it's only 50 students out of more than 230 students who really come to school to study seriously. Besides, they have different backgrounds in terms of economic status, family, and home environment. 

What I learn is that I may not judge and underestimate students too fast like oh he is stupid, he is naughty, or he wont be successful. Once, I taught in a class in which some naughty boys were sitting in a group in the back row. During the class, they chatted, they didn't pay attention, they were so lazy to do assignments even to think. I asked them to behave properly in the class. I also asked them to sit in the front row. However, it changed nothing. I was then irritated. I called them to talk to me. As I asked them some questions, one said,"I dont have money to buy book, Miss"; another said,"I live with my grandma, Miss. I was left by my father and my mom as they divorced". I was so touched knowing their answers. I then figured out why they behaved so in the class. 

Another story is that I was annoyed when there were 1 boy student and 1 girl student who were often absent. When I asked other students about the boy student,"where is he? Why is he often absent?". One of my students replied,"Miss, he often goes to Palembang to buy vegetables as he helps his parents to sell vegetables". Hearing this answer, my annoyance was gone. Another story, but still in the same class, a girl student i mentioned before was often absent as well. On the day she was in the class, I asked her why she was often absent and she said,"I was overslept, Miss". "Why so?" I asked. "My father did not wake me up,"she replied. "Where is your mom?" I inquired again. "She have passed away, Miss," said my student. 

In different class, I asked one boy to take books from the office to the class. But he refused. "Please, ask other student, Miss" said the boy.
"Why do you ask me to ask your friend to take the book?" I asked.
"I'm having stomachache."
"Why?"
"I haven't eaten, Miss."
"Why didnt you eat during the break session?"
"No, Miss."
"Why?" I pushed him to tell the truth.
"I don't have money, Miss"
"How much money do you get from your parents for school?"
"Rp.3000 thousands, Miss. I spend Rp.1000 for the fare of public transportation to go too school and another Rp.1000 to go home"
"Where do you live?"
"Sukamaju, Miss (Sukamaju is quite far from our school). My house is not right on the road side, but I have to walk through an alleyway. I have to walk about 2 km more to get to my home" (Sukamaju is already very far from the school but he has to walk another 2 km. What? Like, seriously? This smart and diligent boy had such a hard life? Well, My throat was getting hurt because I hold my tears back)
"What is your father?" I still asked him
"He is a fish trader who sell the fish by using bicycle. My mom is just a housewife."
Hearing all his answers, I was so damn touched. My tears were about to fall down but I managed to hold it back as I was in front of students, it would be embarrassing if I cried in front of them . Then I walked to the office and asked the poor boy student to follow me. I gave him Rp.10.000 to buy food and he refused at first. But, I said I would be so angry if he didn't accept it. So, he accepted the money at last and say thanks to me.

From my teaching experience, I learn how support and care from teachers really matter for students. Once, I had unmotivated lazy boy student. But I often gave him compliment whenever he tried to do the assignment although he was so darn lazy. Since then, he changed. He became enthusiastic and diligent in the class and was so friendly with me. I really witnessed that support, love, care, and sincerity that I gave to my students had waken them up and burnt their motivation to learn. My conclusion is that don't expect students to understand teachers. Instead, teachers are the ones who MUST understand their students, dive in their real life and guide them to see  and dig the 'gold' inside them. Harsh words like "you are stupid" or "you are useless" will only 'kill' them. The greatest teacher is not the one who can educate with violence or harsh words but he/she is the one who can educate through kindness, sincerity, love, care, and patience. Well, I'm not implying that I am already a good teacher, but at least I'll try my best to be a good one. :)



date Sabtu, 14 Juni 2014


Here we go... Kali ini saya akan bahas topik yang menyebalkan. Topik yang akan kita bahas ini sih sebenarnya kecil ukurannya tapi bisa membunuh rasa percaya diri. Dialah namanya "Jerawat". Sedikit mau bagi pengalaman yaaaa tentang jerawat.... Disini saya akan menceritakan awal mula jerawatan, sampe produk-produk yang ikut andil bikin jerawat tambah parah. Bukan untuk menjelekkan produknya tujuannya, cuma pengen bagi pengalaman aja, siapa tahu bisa jadi referensi... :p Okelaaah...langsung aja...One two three...


Duluuu banget emang ada jerawat, tapi dikit aja, paling satu dua atau tiga. Terus sering gonta-ganti kosmetik, tetep ga ngaruh sama kulit, maksudnya walau sering ganti, kulit tetep ga jerawatan atau iritasi. Karena ngerasa kulit ga bakal rusak, saya coba deh produk ORIFLAME. Saya coba mulai dari untuk mutihin wajahnyaa, trus foundationnya, two way cakenya. Saya campur pakenya sesuka hati, kadang yang ini, kadang yang itu... Alhasil jerawat bersemi seperti bintang dilangit. Singkat cerita, krisis percaya diri nih saya... Sehingga saya menjalani perawatan dan pengobatan buat jerawat.

Natasha Skin Care cabang Palembang jadi pilihan saya(Saya tinggal di Palembang). Konsul dokternya gratisan, terus dikasih krim pagi, malam, anti iritasi, facial wash, dan toner. Saya juga sebulan sekali facial atau chemical feeling disana. Hasilnya??? TIDAK MENGECEWAKAN. Muka saya muluuuuus kayak bayi, lalat aja kalo hinggap kepleset :p Karena udah bagus, ga mau pake terus, aku berhentiin karna takut sama bahan kimia yang terkandung. Ternyata, datanglah NIGHTMARE, kulit saya jadi addicted. Ketergantungan sama krimnya. Saya tahanin, paksain ga pake krim. Dan... Jreeeeng... ga ada lagi tempat buat jerawat tumbuh alias udah kepenuhan. Udah kayak pake topeng jerawat, yg keliatan hanya mata, hidung, ama bibir doang. MENYEDIHKAN. Ancur-seancur-ancurnyaa.

Tibalah saatnya saya berusaha lagi menyembuhkan penyakit kulit menyebalkan ini.Saya berobat ke Dr. Bedah Plastik di Salah satu Rumah sakit swasta di palembang. Emang udah salah alamat sih, masa ngobatin jerawat ke dokter bedah plastik. Nah saya ke sana karena duluuuunyaa saya berobat jerawat ke dia juga, dan berhasil. Tapi, setelah penyakit kulit ini melanda, obat jerawat dari beliau ga ngefek sama sekali. Saya putuskan kembali ke NATASHA. Dan ternyataaaaa.... huaaaa, kulit saya sudah kebaaaal... tambah merah malah, kayak udang rebus dikasih sambel... ga ngefek ngilangin jerawat. abis itu pake krim China yang ga jelas merknya, ga ngefek juga, malah rasanya jadi belang nih kulit kayak panu, hahaha...

Selanjutnya, saya melanjutkan "pertualangan" ke Larissa Skin Care. Tapiiiiiiiii... ga ngefek ngilangin jerawat, cuma bikin wajah cerahan aja. Entahlah, kadang bikin cerah, kadang bikin merah-merah, tapi jerawat tetap berkembang biak dengan gencarnya.Daaaaaan, I finally found a "miracle". saya berobat ke Dr. Athuf. Praktiknya di samping Rumah Makan Pagi Sore deket R.S Charitas Palembang. Wah, hanya bermodalkan uang sedikit untuk krimnya. Wajah saya kembali bersih. Tapi ga kinclong amat. Yang jelas ga kayak pake topeng lagi. Sekarang jerawatnya paling muncul 1,2, atau 3 di wajah. Dan Bekas jerawatnya masih ada dikit... Alhamdulillah... jadi PD lagi walau ga kinclong-kinclong amat.

Nah gitu aja ceritanyaaa... Cerita jelek dan menyebalkan but I think it's worth sharing... Nama-nama skin care dan produk yang saya sebutkan diatas bukan maksud jelekin, tapi mungkin kulit saya aja yang banyak tingkahnya... Ga tau jugalah... haha... SEKIAN cerita jerawatnya :D

date Kamis, 16 Juni 2011

In this entry, I am telling you about friends of mine. Friends I have from junior high school and college. Here we go :D 

MY BEST FRIEND: Sri Fitri Yanti
We met in the elementary school, SD N 1 Sungai Lilin. I forgot why and how we got closer and closer and eventually she became my best friend and she  still does. So, from that elementary school, we also continued our study in the same school at SMP N 1 Sungai Lilin. Then, we also were in the same school at SMA N 2 Sekayu. So, it had been 12 years we spent our days together. Unfortunately, because of financial problem, she couldn't continue her education into college, so that she decided to stay and work in Jakarta. So, it's been almost 4 years for us for being separated. She is a nice girl. She has a great faith in Islam (praying, fasting, and other good things). She is also patient, cute, funny, beautiful, and mature.

In our room in the dormitory of our school, SMA N 2 Sekayu

In our room in the dormitory of our school, SMA N 2 Sekayu


MY  FRIENDS FROM SMP N 1 SUNGAI LILIN

They are Icha, Marlis, Yulia , Yuk Nani (my cousin), Sestri, and Tika. They are also funny. Every words uttered by them is always funny... Shaking my stomach. Those who are like comedians, doing and saying silly and ridiculous stuff, are Marlis and Sestri. They are totally crazy and funny. Whenever we gather, we always laugh, laugh, and laugh, until we feel tired. The day we meet is always a fun day. Love them all... :D

In Ira's House, Idul Fitri Day 




In a village, Idul Fitri Day






MY FRIENDS FROM SRIWIJAYA UNIVERSITY

They are Puspa Nupitasari, Dody Sugiarto, and Beni Wijaya. we really like to spend time together at campus, campus' lake, MALL, or my rented-house. I have other friends like Bunga Aditiya, Diana and Panca but it's rare for us to gather because they live in Palembang. They all are really funny especially Dody. His personality is really different from his appearance. His appearance looks like an ordinary guy. And jreeeeeeng... he is actually a 'crazy' man. He acts and says too much, that's what makes him funny. huaaaah... it will takes long writing to describe him. Benny is a talented guy. He is smart and a dream-obsessed guy. He has strong determination to achieve his ambition. He is the type of guy who won't give up easily. He's funny too though. It's because the influence of Dody's crazy personality. :D ... Puspa is a girl from Baturaja. She likes swimming. When we swam in Persada Lake, we were so surprised because of her good swimming. She showed us her real personality when she was swimming. That's why we call her WATER LADY ROCKER since back then. She rocks the water, LOL. We four like imagination. We like to imagine unimportant and silly things. It's a waste of time but it's so much fun :D I really enjoy every second spent with them. I love them and someday I am gonna miss them.


Dody, Me, and Beny
(My 20th Birthday, at my rented-house)

Weirdo... haha
(At SOLARIA, PIM)

Haha, looks like a couple in middle of fight PART 1
(At SOLARIA, PIM)

Haha, looks like they were in the middle of fight PART 2
(At SOLARIA, PIM)

KARAOKE

PERSADA LAKE

CAMPUS

CAMPUS


Yeah.... they are all my good friends..... They can make me laugh laugh and laugh... They know who I really am, all my good and my bad. I don't need to be somebody else around them. They accept everything in me, just the way I am... and It's nice to be the real me.....   :D

date Jumat, 25 Maret 2011

Every body has family. At least, it consists of father, mother, and siblings. Yeah. I have a great one consisting my daddy as my guardian angel and superhero, my mom as my guardian angel and supermom, and my younger brother as my guardian also. Without them, I am really nothing. I am dying. They are the most precious treasures ever in my entire life. 


MY BELOVED DADDY





MY BELOVED MOM



MY BELOVED YOUNGER BROTHER




ME AND MY YOUNGER BROTHER
(When We were Kids)



They all are my life. Without them, my life is going to be like hell. This is what I have in this real world. They still support and love me no matter how good or bad I am. Their love will never change and go till the end of this world. They are my heaven... :D

date

I am about to enter the tough time in my life. This is the time I have to write and read a lot for my undergraduate thesis. It's such a big burden on my shoulder. It's because I am the real procrastinator-well actually I wonder what's the difference between being a procrastinator and lazy student. As I am a procrastinator, deadline helps me a lot since it forces me to complete my assignments. While, you know, there's no one that will give me deadline for completing my undergraduate thesis. Even the motivation from parents is not enough to encourage and pump my spirit to read a lot and write eventually. It sucks.

I know what I am doing is wrong. I am thinking the right things but I can't make it. I can't resist my desire to have fun. I can distinguish what's good and what's bad, what I need and what I want. Yet I keep doing what I want and most of those are bad things. You know, having fun is a really bad thing for this time being and condition.

My dreams are that I want to graduate soon, work soon, and continue my study to Master Program in Education. Huh... I hate myself. Sometimes, being obsessed in a thing you really want to achieve is good and I never feel that way. I am too slow and just go with the flow. Pathetic... Pathetic... Pathetic... :((

date Jumat, 28 Januari 2011